I am bored out of my mind. I have been bored out of my mind for days and days. Thankfully, the puking has ceased, but I’m still tired ALL THE TIME. My therapist, Nancy, says that the way I experience boredom is strange because for most people it’s very blase blah. For me, however, I feel boredom very intensely. It frustrates and angers me and makes me want to cry. It makes me hate my life and hate myself, and throw mud pies and think about how my hair has so many split ends from processing. It’s like that White Stripes song, “I Just Don’t Know What to do With Myself”. I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!!!! I’m not even exaggerating. I’m so bored and tired that tears actually come out of my eyes.

I need a good book. You know the Iliad is coming to the big screen with Brad Pitt cast as Achilles? It’s called Troy and it’s due out next year. Helen of Troy is being played by Diane Kruger. You know, the face that launched a thousand ships. I’ve known this for awhile because I have a friend who writes movie reviews and he got to look at the script. He offered to let me read it, too, but I declined. I mean, I’ve already read The Iliad. One of my favorite paintings is one of Hektor saying good-bye to Andromache and his child before he goes off to war. I’ve always been interested in the character of Andromache because a bunch of shitty things happens to her after her husband’s death.

Brad Pitt as Achilles? I don’t know… but I like the guy, I like most of his movies… but a mythological period piece? Hmm. And I don’t know about the crew behind it. The guy who directed Perfect Storm is doing it, and the writer was the guy who did 25th Hour. It seems a little… weird… to have these people be the ones doing Homer’s epic. But what the fuck do I know.